It has been about eight months since I have ventured out into the (online) dating world and what do I have to show for those 8 months... 5 1/2 dates in total with four men. Hmmm.... Lol.
My very first date was back in April and just the fact that I was going out was a huge step for me. It only took two months later for my second date and two months after that, in August, my third date. I didn't even post about that one. It wasn't a bad date. None of them were. I think that I was really lucky with those three as they were all complete gentlemen towards me and I had a really good time with each of them. I just didn't want to continue on with them because I just wasn't feeling it. Maybe one date wasn't fair, but I guess that was my loss I was willing to chance.
Well it has been two months since my last date in August and low and behold, I am keeping up with the pattern. I had a date last night. I had met him very briefly (hence the 1/2) last weekend for coffee and got a good vibe from him. The one date wonder actually wanted to see someone a second time, lol. We had been texting between then and now, but last night was date night.
But let me back up a bit. I had a really nice time with him when we met for coffee which was literally about a 30 minute encounter. However, in that short time I felt as if he were someone that I could really see myself with and I was actually excited to have had made plans to meet again. Later that night I cried. I realized that I could see myself with him because he had a lot of physical features similar to my husband. He, as in his personality, didn't strike a reminder button with me, just his looks.
But I liked him. And I thought that it was time to take the plunge into going out with someone that I actually could see myself with so that I could and would actually want to go out multiple times with the same person. That became the next scary step. But I took it last night in leather heeled boots, in the rain, with frizzy hair :( lol. I had a really great time, it wasn't just nice.
He seems to be very sweet and I just like him. There was only one moment when I had a reminder of my husband, but it came and went. Other than that, I was mentally with this man the whole night. His body language was telling me that he's quite into me, lol. That made me feel more aware of my own and actually how closed I was, but as the night went on, I felt more comfortable and opened up more too. The night even ended with a kiss, a few actually. It had a been quite a while, but I wasn't awkward (I don't think). It was nice, really nice and I felt completely comfortable with him. There weren't even any tears shed when I came home.
I can honestly say that right now, I feel very much in the moment. And in this present time, this man feels very... warm. I am looking forward to our next date, but that is about as far as I am looking.
The Fab Four... Thanks guys.
My very first date was back in April and just the fact that I was going out was a huge step for me. It only took two months later for my second date and two months after that, in August, my third date. I didn't even post about that one. It wasn't a bad date. None of them were. I think that I was really lucky with those three as they were all complete gentlemen towards me and I had a really good time with each of them. I just didn't want to continue on with them because I just wasn't feeling it. Maybe one date wasn't fair, but I guess that was my loss I was willing to chance.
Well it has been two months since my last date in August and low and behold, I am keeping up with the pattern. I had a date last night. I had met him very briefly (hence the 1/2) last weekend for coffee and got a good vibe from him. The one date wonder actually wanted to see someone a second time, lol. We had been texting between then and now, but last night was date night.
But let me back up a bit. I had a really nice time with him when we met for coffee which was literally about a 30 minute encounter. However, in that short time I felt as if he were someone that I could really see myself with and I was actually excited to have had made plans to meet again. Later that night I cried. I realized that I could see myself with him because he had a lot of physical features similar to my husband. He, as in his personality, didn't strike a reminder button with me, just his looks.
But I liked him. And I thought that it was time to take the plunge into going out with someone that I actually could see myself with so that I could and would actually want to go out multiple times with the same person. That became the next scary step. But I took it last night in leather heeled boots, in the rain, with frizzy hair :( lol. I had a really great time, it wasn't just nice.
He seems to be very sweet and I just like him. There was only one moment when I had a reminder of my husband, but it came and went. Other than that, I was mentally with this man the whole night. His body language was telling me that he's quite into me, lol. That made me feel more aware of my own and actually how closed I was, but as the night went on, I felt more comfortable and opened up more too. The night even ended with a kiss, a few actually. It had a been quite a while, but I wasn't awkward (I don't think). It was nice, really nice and I felt completely comfortable with him. There weren't even any tears shed when I came home.
I can honestly say that right now, I feel very much in the moment. And in this present time, this man feels very... warm. I am looking forward to our next date, but that is about as far as I am looking.
The Fab Four... Thanks guys.
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